What’s the rule on friends being casually “involved”?
The concept isn’t new to me. The concept isn’t even personally new to me. But what’s the deal?
She’s my best friend. She knows all the shameful things and thought processes I don’t even dare say out loud. It doesn’t even matter that I can count with one hand the number of times we’ve hung out in the last… 4 or 5 years? We’re just peas and carrots I suppose.
I was just concerned because whenever people say it doesn’t affect the friendship, it does. You better bet your fucking ass it does. In this case though, it was fun, it was great, and I don’t think I feel any different about her. In fact, she mentioned she started going out with this guy, and I honestly wish her the best. She deserves that much.
Still, we don’t exactly have the most conventional of friendships. I get a kick out of being a bit of an ass to her, and just putting her in situations that make her squirm. But through all that, even knowing what she knows about me, she loves me, and she’s my best friend, and that should count for something, and although I’m not looking to more our friendship in a romantic direction per se, I do hope I could have similar kind of dynamic with the girl I do want a relationship with.
About me
I am just another kid trying to find his place, but four lang of thousands of miles, 4.20 languages, twenty odd years, and several guitars later, I still don't know where that is. But I will keep searching, and maybe I'll start getting an idea. This coil is just brimming with wanderlust. Nomad. Vagabond. Call me what you will.
This here is my little fledgling blog. Equal parts punching bag, confessional, and exhibit, but all thoughtspace. I'm gonna try to play around with layout and content until something works. I've never had one, so we'll see how this experiment goes.
