Every once in a while I forget about this song. Fortunately for me, that makes it all the more awesome when we find each other again and again.
Goodnight world
A change of pace
I’m starting to feel tired. Not just everyday, normal tired. My job is slowly wearing on me.
This isn’t the job I signed up for. Sure, the money is good, my coworkers are young and fun, and even the city isn’t so bad if you can get past the ridiculously cold weather. But the work is tiring. My ability to do work has been decreasing every day, and I don’t know how anyone has not yet called me out on being a sham.I go to meetings, and sit at my desk typing. The weather is so dry I keep downing a full water bottle every 5 minutes.
Money only gets you so far. I need to switch things up again.
What’s the rule on friends being casually “involved”?
The concept isn’t new to me. The concept isn’t even personally new to me. But what’s the deal?
She’s my best friend. She knows all the shameful things and thought processes I don’t even dare say out loud. It doesn’t even matter that I can count with one hand the number of times we’ve hung out in the last… 4 or 5 years? We’re just peas and carrots I suppose.
I was just concerned because whenever people say it doesn’t affect the friendship, it does. You better bet your fucking ass it does. In this case though, it was fun, it was great, and I don’t think I feel any different about her. In fact, she mentioned she started going out with this guy, and I honestly wish her the best. She deserves that much.
Still, we don’t exactly have the most conventional of friendships. I get a kick out of being a bit of an ass to her, and just putting her in situations that make her squirm. But through all that, even knowing what she knows about me, she loves me, and she’s my best friend, and that should count for something, and although I’m not looking to more our friendship in a romantic direction per se, I do hope I could have similar kind of dynamic with the girl I do want a relationship with.
Hello Tumblr
Testing.
Is this thing on?
Is anyone out there?
Long time no see. To be quite honest, I have been quite busy with work in general, and when I’m not, I’m usually just trying to distract myself from being myself. This usually involves cleaning the apartment, cooking a nice(r) meal, trying to outdrink my Russian coworkers, or just getting stoned and watching zombie flicks.
I started this out as a way to vent, as a way to just say something I might need to say. Lately it’s been getting a bit more difficult, and then I’m plagued with the doubt that anyone even bothers. Should that even bother me? I don’t know. If that sounded a bit existential, it isn’t. I’m just mentally lethargic at this moment.
At any rate, there’s a much to share, but I will try keeping them compartmentalized in their own self-contained posts.
I want a boy best friend who will call me beautiful, and like my photos on facebook, commenting them saying things such as the fact he’s proud to have me as a bestfriend. One that I can call up, crying about other boys, and him saying he’ll beat the shit out of them for me. A boy bestfriend who will drive me around like he’s my big brother, and kiss me on my cheek/forehead when he knows I’m upset. One who becomes friends with my boyfriend and one who calls me up to see what I’m doing. I want a boy best friend who will tell me when I’m wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a perfect boy best friend, who will love me and protect me from all the other boys.
^ Maybe it’s just me, but I feel like I do a pretty good job at this. :)
^ Cutie up there tells the truth.
EXCEPT THE PART ABOUT FACEBOOK, BITCH NEVER TELLS ME I’M BEAUTIFUL ON FACEBOOK.
btw, whoever wrote this needs to stop watching the Jonas Brothers, have a period, and grow up.
+1 on the “grow up” part
Excuse what will inevitably be perceived as crankiness, but what about the girl best friend? It’s a two way street, and I feel that at least on some level, this is perpetuating the self-centered and entitled female way of thinking. Why don’t you get over this idea of having this awesome friend, and for once actually be the great friend yourself?
(Source: startswithg00dbye)
pie0:
Johnny Cash - Hurt
I will always reblog this. Always. Without fail. No matter what. It is the one song that can just break me down. :)
I guess it will be a quiet weekend rereading Deathly Hallows
Of course I could get around to reading those reports for my presentation next weekend, but my childhood could use some nurturing right now.
Back to simpler times!
I love love love Liam Neeson. Especially when he cries.
Oh damn. What now, Liam?
sebastian domaschke
im in love with this
What a great tattoo, AND an Adele reference.
Whenever I hear that song, I think of New York City. There’s something else about that city, and I would love to live there (if only for a bit).
Sadface. Was going to book tickets to Foo Fighters, Biffy Clyro, Jimmy Eat World but its all sold out.
pie0:
I was really excited too. All 3 at once. Not seen any of them yet.
I feel your pain. I had a chance to see the Foos, and Against Me! and Serj Tankian (or System of a Down) were opening for them, but I had to ditch the tickets because of obligations.
That hurt. I’ve come to the conclusion that money isn’t such a big price to pay to see artists whose work I love perform live.
About me
I am just another kid trying to find his place, but four lang of thousands of miles, 4.20 languages, twenty odd years, and several guitars later, I still don't know where that is. But I will keep searching, and maybe I'll start getting an idea. This coil is just brimming with wanderlust. Nomad. Vagabond. Call me what you will.
This here is my little fledgling blog. Equal parts punching bag, confessional, and exhibit, but all thoughtspace. I'm gonna try to play around with layout and content until something works. I've never had one, so we'll see how this experiment goes.
